So, it's been quite some time since I last checked in. I am happy to say that I am still smoke free - almost 2 years now. Yeah for me and the people around me.
Unfortunately, smoking was masking another health problem. About a year ago, I found out that I had low thyroid. I was tired all the time, had no energy, started growing hair where I wasn't suppose to and the most significant of all symptoms, enormous weight gain.
Yep, I gained another 50 lbs on top of what I already weighed. It's horrible. My doctor told me that if I didn't loose it soon, that I wouldn't live to be 50. That's a serious problem. Once we get the thyroid regulated, he told me, the weight will start dropping off. It took about 6 months to find the right dosage and you know what? The weight is still here. I've been bouncing around the same weight, give or take 10 lbs for the last year. I can't seem to push past that bubble.
I've now decided that since blogging about smoking helped me to quit, well then I am going to blog about weight loss and getting healthy-the ups and downs and everything in between-so that I can be accountable to someone or something other than myself. I know that it's been done to death by other people and there is nothing original about it, but you know what? I don't care. If it helps me, then call me selfish because I am going to do it.
Starting with today.
Today I was PMS'ing. At one point I yelled out at work, "Release the Kraken for God's sake and just get it over with." I feel so bloated that I look like the Little Red Balloon from that movie they used to make us watch in elementary school and which, surprisingly, is presently available on Hulu.
My diet reflected my day.
It started out on a good note:
2 white corn tortillas, 2 eggs, and salsa-233 calories
Then, I started to slide:
White Chocolate Scone-470 calories
The worst:
Habit cheeseburger, fries and coke-1365 calories
And since I don't have much room left:
Dad's stuff-568 calories
Exercise:
NONE-didn't have the energy....LOL!
I wanted to post a motivation picture to refer to (above) but I realize that I look smokin' hot it it. It was my 20th year reunion a couple of months ago.
So, here is another one where I look like a dork and can see how fat I look.
Anyway, I welcome your comments and possibly suggestions on what worked for you and what didn't.
Here I go on my journey.....watch me go!
I have realized that I am not going to be skinny again simply by wishing I was. If that worked I would be as skinny as my sister. She's tall, skinny and can make burlap look good. It's depressing. So last month I joined a gym. I realized that I have to do things in little steps. So my goal was to hit the gym at least 3 times a week for 30 minutes. I had to do SOMETHING for 30 minutes. It didn't matter if I lost weight, I was trying to start a habit. Then came TDay and I got a wee bit sick. So I didn't go last week, or Monday and today. But I am hitting it tomorrow. I will start writing down things I eat too. No calories. No measurements. Just a journal of food intake. My OCD likes it when I am detailed. But I know if I get too detailed then I will miss a day and then I will feel like I have to quit and start again later. It's weird, I know. At least I can still make it three days this week if I try. Take a look at couch to 5k apps. Run Keeper lets you run Pandora in the background. They have a good workout station. Oddly enough, I find that the eliptical burns more calories for me. But I don't feel like I did anything. I just need to fit into the clothes that I own. Which I don't. And you can tell.
ReplyDeleteBaby steps girlie!! You got this!
Thanks Meghan! I agree. I worked out a deal with my therapist that I would make an effort to jump on the treadmill to get into the habit of it. She would in turn check my log of what I did during the week. I would be able to read my Kindle at my leisure and not feel guilty about it as long as I was on the treadmill while doing it. It's at my parents house next door so I would do it in the mornings before work because I would find an excuse (appointment, homework, etc.) if I waited until after work. It worked for the first day. I got on, walked 30 minutes, got off and puked. I was sick with the flu for 3 days and still have a cough/cold pending. I should look on the bright side...at least I'm getting all out of the way when I begin so I won't get stuck in a couple of weeks.
ReplyDeleteYou can do this too. I just know it.
Girl, if you can quit smoking, you can get some healthy routines going! Lots of the same skills and mindset, I would guess!
ReplyDeleteBaby steps.
Thanks for your support, Stephanie. I've also learned a bunch of things from my time in WW. The type of things that stick with you so I will use them as tools also.
ReplyDeleteI am a really impatient person so I need to learn to be OK with baby steps and small progress.